Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Brief Thoughts on Time

We cannot store time.
- Time has no shelf life.
- Time is always spent, without remainder.
- Time unspent would be senseless

Time is spent in activity
- Some activity is required, eating, sleeping, cleaning, etc.
- Time not spent in required activity can be selected (i.e. optional)

Time can not be traded or exchanged
- Activity can be traded
- - Others can free up our time by spending theirs.
- - Some required activities can be done by others, increasing time open for selection
- - We can spend our time on another's purposes in exchange for non-time compensation.

I wonder how far this could be taken as the foundation of social interaction.  The single intrinsic element of value that we each naturally possess:  time.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Hopes for the week

I am hopeful that new approaches to extracting signal from moments of experience may succeed where the last two weeks did not.  These memes spawned from moment meme abstractions have become central to making more headway.  The entire project will succeed or fail upon this effort.

The failures of the last two weeks have been difficult to deal with but have been very useful.  They have increased understanding to the point where I feel that the deep refactor of philosophical approach that I am undergoing provides more exacting logic, less room for uncertainty and should over all, as I hope, find a pass through the terrain I'm struggling across.

Also, new methods of testing have been generated out of the last two weeks that codify some of the new understandings produced from the efforts.  These new tests and more coming behind them will help me implement the new approach with more clarity.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Expression of Will

Force and Power:

  1. Force is a measure of our ability to change, internal or external states.
  2. Power is a measure of our ability to exert this force over time.
  3. Force and Power both measure kinetic expressions of will.

Confidence and Restraint:
  1. Self restraint is a fettering of will, both its force and its power.
  2. Self confidence is an unfettering of our kinetic expression.
  3. The ability to express our will is limited; confidence spends what restraint refunds.
  4. A dominance of confidence maximizes the force and power of our expression.
  5. A dominance of restraint conserves this potential; delayed maximization.

  1. The regulation of our will avoids homeostasis, seeking a dominant influence for each moment.
  2. Regulation providing consistent dominance leads to the maximization of individual power.
  3. Regulation tolerating conflict leads to the progressive attenuation of our expressive capabilities.
  4. Failure to regulate will into dominant states wastes the individual gifts of energy.
  5. Success in this regulation can leverage a paucity of energy into an influential expression of will.

  1. We can increase our energy measure and production rate to an extent limited by our condition.
  2. We can perfect our regulative ability to an extent limited by our circumstance and experience.
  3. We can do neither perfectly (i.e. IZEO), force is not exerted in a vacuum, and our understandings are limited by short lives and received childhoods.
  4. While perfection is delusion and as a goal a sickness, its nearness is a desire innate within us, and cannot be healthily set aside.

  1. We continue to draw near, valuing progress over perfection.
  2. We can increase and perfect, living dominantly and without conflict.

Friday, March 27, 2009

The world and its edge

"1.1 The world is the totality of facts, not of things.

1.11 The world is determined by the facts, and by their being all the facts.
1.12 For the totality of facts determines what is the case, and also whatever is not the case.
1.13 The facts in logical space are the world."  
Ludwig Wittgenstein

When the world of things was not yet fully mapped, maps had edges.  Lines beyond which warnings were posted and pictures of imagined sea creatures swam.  Across this edge many had sketched their imaginings, some more true than others, but all beyond the edge of verifiable experience.  All beyond the edge of the world.

We each keep an internal map of our world, which can be more rich and varied than the definition of landmasses.  This map also has an edge beyond which we only sketch our imaginings.  Beyond the edge of the map lies religion and other fantasies of mind, some of which have the potential to be verified by experience, some of which do not.

LW is calling the world that which is defined by the facts of our maps.

I will begin using the word, world, to describe all that is on this side of the edge of the map.  Thanks LW.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

The Honourable thing to do

"Telling someone something that he does not understand is pointless, even if you add that he will not understand it. (That so often happens with someone you love.) If you have a room which you do not want certain people to get into, put a lock on it for which they do not have the key. But there is no point in talking to them about it, unless of course you want them to admire the room from the outside!

The honourable thing to do is to put a lock on the door which will be noticed only by those who can open it, not by the rest."

Ludwig Wittgenstein

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Meditation is Pleasurable

Meditation: As part of the new Technomonk discipline I have been practicing meditation each work day for a brief five minute session. After a week of practice I had a surprising experience. I enjoyed it. A physical sensation occurred that was pleasurable. I did not know mediation offered that. I do not remember anyone ever saying that meditation was pleasurable!

I am not more interested and wonder what other secrets this ancient practice holds.

Friday, March 20, 2009

The Santa Claus Deception

Theism trains children to increase their credulity sufficiently to accept explanations of the world that are unsupported by life experience: Noah, Virgin Birth, Miracles, Resurrection, etc.

Does the Santa Claus deception tradition prepare the credulity of children to receive faith based (as opposed to reality based) explanations?

The revelation of the Santa Claus deception coincides with the time when children start getting pressured to publicly and formally commit themselves to their faith.

Why does the revelation of this deception not also cause children to cast aside the other deceptions that follow?

Interestingly, children are encouraged to conspire with their authority figures to propagate this deception to their uninitiated siblings and other uninitiated children. The justification for this is the benefit of the uninitiated, don't "spoil" it for them. This training to propagate a deception for the good of others adds a curious element to my efforts to understand better the nature of theistic meme set.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

This Morning:

Breakfast of French bread, baked yesterday, homemade butter on the homemade bread with coffee from freshly ground beans. Next, wrestling with tasks for the day: obvious need to clean up meme generation that is opposed by previous experience, but when and how still elude.

Later, prepared an impromptu red bean recipe and set it going, cooked bacon for back stock, read from the fifth book of the Decline and Fall (Gibbons), performed morning exercise, and meditation.

Problems of the day still elude me, but certainty is the goal and prize of research and should not be expected to appear at hand the way it does for engineering activity. With discipline satisfied, I begin my work day, inching certainty forward.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

A Misfit Always, Always a Misfit

I feel I have always been the misfit. I usually find seating at the fringe of social environments, and if I sit in the center so that I do not look on the fringe I will have made no real change. Within new social environments I have been capable of quickly finding a narrow set of friends, and an inversely wide ranging allergy to the larger social context. Unable to extend my society beyond two or three associates concurrently, I have known a small series of friends rather well. I feel that we have known one another well. I cannot assume with any accuracy that my perspective of shared experiences matches the perspective of others. A misfit always: by nature, by nurture, and doubly by the vast profusion of causal factors untraceable by means of unaided human mental faculties: always a misfit.

I do not believe I choose to be the misfit. There is little choosing as clear and distinct as to be called choice. There is little choice involved, for the misfit or the population of the remainder. The dynamic was well established during childhood, and the parties have not substantially changed due to the onset of adult latitude. Others still find it difficult to understand me and I find it difficult to communicate with them. These problems have not been resolved over time; in fact they have increased significantly with age.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Expression of Will

Force and Power:
Force is a measure of our ability to change, internal or external states.
Power is a measure of our ability to exert this force over time.
Force and Power both measure kinetic expressions of will.

Example 1:
I can spend money on a single purchase using my economic force. I can also spend money on purchase after purchase and you will feel my economic power.

Example 2:
When we see young couples showing affection we see an expression of will, the force of love; passion. When we see a married couple showing affection we also see an expression of will, the power of love; commitment.

Example 3:
Military Force: Bombing an enemy.
Military Power: Funding a long running war.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Measurement precedes understanding

Relief vs. Duty?

I listen to the news, and actively participate in a social news aggregating site. I used to do more, but pulled back after massive election fatigue. I'm trying to stay informed, but I'm coming to the conclusion that these habits are unhealthy, yet I feel some conflicting responsibility to stay informed and understand the wider context I'm living in. It is difficult to put a value on this context when so much of news is spun, expressed in hyperbole (often partisan), and everything seems to be delivered in an almost gleeful doom and fear mongering style.

The leadership of my country (and likely yours too) seems to tell the populace what they want to hear or what they think we need to hear, and in doing this expose what they really think about us. They think we're idiots. Maybe we are (as a populace), we let these people lead us.

I assume that if I unplug from the news cycle and the manipulation being directed against me that I will feel a weight fall from my shoulders, and if I do is that just the abdication of a responsibility that I'm feeling. How to reconcile?

Friday, March 13, 2009

Compare perfection with fire.
Nearness satisfies and warms, while touching destroys.
Both cause us to stare and blur focus.
Both are beneficial but forever separate from our selves.
We can not take on the nature of either, we are capable neither of consuming nor containing them within ourselves.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Art Related Caution

My reaction to inspiration fueled by art leaves me with energy that demands to be immediately released, and since no planning or time can be taken this energy is spent in processing copious amounts of alcohol while furiously typing away or debating away the night (if I am lucky enough to have a social outlet). Inspiration from art nearly always leaves me hung-over. As a result I approach art with caution.

Monday, March 09, 2009

Brief Testimony of My Happy Disbelief

I have chosen to reject belief in the super natural.

I do not believe in ghosts, magic, witches, demons, fairies, or any other of the myriad and vast imaginings of humans. The detailed richness of these fantastical creatures and their exploits cannot be denied. We seem, as a species, to be nearly unfettered in our imaginative capabilities, and comparably uncritically credulous. Humans are not only willing to believe in the unprovable, the un-experienced, and unreasonable but from this sandy ground they are too often eager to persecute, ostracize, or wish future woes upon those that stand on a the more dependable ground reinforced and confirmed by daily experience and reason.

I do not profess belief in the unbelievable, or knowledge of the unknowable.

There have been more religions, and other super natural mental constructs than any man has years in his life. Those who lived believing in Zeus, Jupiter, Baal, Thor, Mithra, Mazda (the list could go on and on) overwhelm the number of those who live under the super natural beliefs currently active in the minds of men. Waves upon waves of parents and children have broke upon this life believing in the religions that happened to be active during their life times. These peoples were intelligent, sincere and comparable to ourselves. They, like those affected in our current time, were able to count all men wrong but themselves and those akin to them, with no more evidence or reason than the beliefs they themselves nurtured and entertained.

No super natural causes are respected as evidence or reason.

The majority of persons believing in fantastical constructs have done so since birth, received from parents and culture, inculcated during childhood and often retained until passed on once again. Children do not have a strong sense of what is possible and what is not. The parent is the priest of life's mysteries, showing them what is real and possible. The parent can corrupt this responsibility with beliefs in what is not real or possible, what is not natural. The children of these parents find it hard to escape these constructs and most often put them aside (but not away) and give them what minimum maintenance is required, living the majority of their lives with reason and sense.

Where a person is born, when, and to whom are the dominating factors influencing whether a person will believe in a religious construct and which one they will believe in. For this we are individually not responsible, we are products of our upbringing. The individual is responsible for why they keep them and pass them on. We, meaning capable adult humans, are each responsible for our own minds and must be brave enough to face the threats and punishments we were assured of as children.

I do not believe in fantasy. I was indoctrinated as a child, and it consumed too much of my youth. I cannot change or reclaim what was lost. I can enjoy and revel in a clear mind, cleaned of non natural constructs constantly conflicting with reality. I can choose to enjoy what is natural, enjoy the life that was given to me, and not to live in an abayent state, waiting for a life I have not been given.

My last several years free of belief in miracles, in god and magical communications with him have been the best of my entire life. I have chosen to set these constraints of fantasy aside and I have never been happier with myself, my life or those in it. Once free, I felt no measureable decrease, no loss, except the genial society of those who have not yet chosen to set fantasy aside.

This was a brief testimony of my happy disbelief.

Saturday, March 07, 2009

The truth about the world, he said, is that anything is possible. Had you not seen it all from birth and thereby bled it of its strangeness it would appear to you for what it is, a hat trick in a medicine show, a fevered dream, a trance bepopulate with chimeras having neither analogue nor precedent, an itinerant carnival, a migratory tentshow whose ultimate destination after many a pitch in many a mudded field is unspeakable and calamitous beyond reckoning.

Blood Meridian, Cormac McCarthy

Tuesday, March 03, 2009


Worry, so easy to do
especially with so much help
from media and government
working together to achieve
universal worry coverage.

Some want us to worry so we will support them
others want us to worry about supporting them.

The campaign of worry has been effective
friends having panic attacks for the first time
friends loosing jobs and scared for personal futures
scared of loosing ground fought for
scared of needing help.

Worry comes easily
especially with so many
easy reasons to.