Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Unconcerned with Style

We are from forgotten places,
unneeded by the current times,
unnoticed and unheeded.

We are made weak by the weight of our past:
We are frequently tired, tripping over fallen hemms
but we are not embarressed, we escape notice,
and our fall is what is left of our pride.

We do not hold our heads up, but neither down;
we look straight, straight at you,
judging the angle of your returning gaze,
measuring its brevity
if returned at all.

We are quiet and to the side,
observing, judging the players in the current,
the present world order.

We are forgotten and poor, left behind by progress,
drifting to the sides of the great human push.

You'll see us in your periphery, if you take a moment
to notice - you'll see us, walking slowly along -
- with nowhere important to go, in our out of style pants,
synched up tight at the waist, material bunching like unused momentum -
eyes humbled but not cowed - looking straight back at you.

We don't have style, yesterday has no motivation to change,
although we do,
we do change.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009


There is always a way forward.


Difficult times may often require

That we pivot on our axis, before

finding our way forward.


Difficult times and difficult destinations

Are not dissimilar in this regard.

Monday, May 25, 2009

I can't determine whether my goals are windmills

They seem substantial to me, but I am also the only

Person around titling at these potential windmills.

It cannot matter whether they are windmills are not

They seem substantial enough to me and I have no

Other desire but to tilt at them…

Maybe to a more enlightened individual looking at my life

I will look like a dog that kept chasing cars

But I will ask my judges whether I looked happy or not.

Sunday, May 24, 2009


Before we take up our task of question and answers, or more accurately the trials and subsequent refinements of question and answers we must agree on a small matter. This matter is a potential obstacle that certain minds will bring to difficult questions. This matter is a shrinking or retreat into abdication of responsibility to understand. This matter is a giving up of hope in knowing and abdicating to a power outside our mutual sphere of understanding. These responses often reference gods but there is no reason that they must. Many people reference experts, historical figures or other authorities they feel sufficiently removed from. This matter of dropping our individual responsibility to understand, to think through questions, to untie knots, to explore unknown spaces must be set aside before we begin as unworthy of our nature and faculties. We can not answer all questions that we can pose, of course not, but we can try. We can work them out to the fullest extent of our ability and never once consult an oracle or sign in the heavens. We can fully explore the best arguments we have, so that we are ready when new evidence comes to light or new ways of living or understanding clear the way before us and we can answer what was before unavailable to our comprehension. This does not preclude answers that may depend on agents of cause that are unknown in an empirical sense. It does however say that any answer must only be enumerated with its fellows as a possible answer and that the matter before us is not an answer unwanted but an answer unsought. Resolution of this matter is critical for our productive discussion and as easily accomplished: We must each admit of and commit to the seeking of truth, that it needs seeking, and that we benefit in the finding. This admission and subsequent agreement free us to take up our task without reserve.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

I wonder…

I wonder if how we think about other people reflects how we think about ourselves. Maybe not directly but indirectly somehow. When I hear people talking as if the populace at large is indolent and fee loading, I wonder where that point of view comes from. We, as individuals, know a tiny fragment of the population personally. Our personal experience with people is so startlingly limited that it is hard to trust even my positive feelings about humanity as based in anything but wish.

So when I hear someone talk about shallow consumers I wonder if I could interpret this as a wish. The speaker wishes that his moral standing was so rarified that all the rest of the population would have to be shallow mindless consumption driven automatons.

I think I hear this talk of populace most when people talk about the governmental policies they do not like and come up with the negative outcome they think will occur. It makes more sense for me to hear this as wish than as a real logical expression.

How can we talk about 400 million people with any honest surety of accuracy?

The most accurate way I could generalize the populace would be to consider them generally like me, but in

widely variant circumstance.

Maybe that is a key difference.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Do you feel...

Do you feel like 
a river filled with silt,
great for gardens 
but difficult to get moving?

Saturday, May 16, 2009


I have the will to escape from willing, at least for the remainder of today.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Life is not a gift.  Life is a fact.  

We have it, we can lose it and we can have it taken from us.

Life can be lost and taken in more ways than death.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009


Do you ever feel like a solid old car
with rust damage along the bottom;
with corrosion caused by salt;
caused by solutions?

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Wondering Why I Behave This Way

I sometims cry when I read good literature.  I do not fully know why, the occurrences do not significantly coincide with sadness in the works themselves so such an easy explanation is not available.  I suspect that it as an expression of deep appreciation for what the author has accomplished.  Maybe literary abstraction allows me to experience empathy more forcefully than in daily life which is terribly deeper.  I have never cried while listening to music like lovers of classical music profess is possible, but maybe there is a direct comparison between the experiences.

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

Meme Engine: Progress Report

The first set of sprints on the machine learning research project was wrapped up early in April of this year.  An instance was spun up and it was capable of learning how to play tic-tac-toe from a completely trial and error basis.  It was able to learn to play, to follow the feedback provided by the environment, and even to create memes from experience and behave completely from its meme stack.  While it was able to do this and much was learned from that element of success there were several elements of failure from which much more can be gleaned, learned and applied to the next set of sprints.  The error state in a form of questions, "Why didn't the instance learn to play tic-tac-toe better?  Why is it blind to my strategy while mindful of the rules?"

Error Briefs:
1.  Externalized Judgements:  The source material for judgement formation was reflecting external environment and did not arise directly from internal reason.  This passivity precluded independent thought and any meaningful grounds for speculative interpretation of another actor's behavior.  The instance needs to judge independently, relying on its own internalized feedback system.  

2.  Lack of Motive:  The instance had no reason to play, it was forced to play and it had no internal valuation of why feedback was positive.  It learned how to play but not why to play. It requires internal conditions that must be maintained to maintain existence, a reason to play. This is related to the error brief above.

3.  Cartesian Error:  The instance had no type relation to its environment and was positioned as an outside observer that could effect but not be affected, basically I reproduced Descartes silliness in splitting the mind and body, actor and environment.  The instance needs to arise from the environment, fundamental sharing type, and learn to identify elements of its environment and not just know them.  This is challenging, but provides exciting possibilities.

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

My Faults

My best faults are the ones I can identify, while the ones I cannot are much worse.

But my worst faults by far, are the ones falsely identified as virtue.

How can virtue be corrected?

Monday, May 04, 2009

There really is no hurry.

It feels like it, yes,

But feelings are often wrong,

And trust is easily misplaced

In warm colors and 

confident hands.