Thursday, November 20, 2014


Part of new discipline project is to learn how to bake bread with daily practice.

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Alice made me a picture

There are exactly 43 candles on that cake, and Pinky Pie is throwing the party.

Doubt is not a pleasant condition, but certainty is a ridiculous one. - Voltaire

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Little Smiles Are Real Too

Time passes strangely, not unfriendly
too real sometimes, unwelcome
but other times,
odd times,
everything is shaggy
and wonderful.

It doesn't stay that way
but its encouraging, comforting
to know its out there
expecting me.

Monday, October 06, 2014

Two Decade Decline in Crime

Link to FBI data

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Accustom yourself to the belief that death is nothing to us. For all good and evil lie in sensation whereas death is the privation of sensation.

Epicurus, Letter to Menoeceus

Sunday, September 21, 2014

"This one thing is certain, that nothing is certain."


Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage: A novel

I read Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage: A novel in two days, because wow.  As always, I feel stunned after finishing one of his novels, not sure what to say, and unable to describe what I've just read in any way that could possibly do it justice.  Loved it.

Self is Response

Self is Response

We know that our conscious awareness accounts for a minority of actual brain activity, we know that we cannot force ourselves to remember, sometimes we must wait and the memory will come, in its own time.  We know that we were waiting on something else, that we do not control but that cooperates with our conscious awareness.  We are more than our conscious awareness, our capabilities are greater than this and more loosely connected than we often know or admit.

How can we know ourselves?  We can know ourselves by our responses, by our behavior.  How do I respond to given situations?  How I respond defines my current self.  My responses are the imprint of my full self upon circumstance, from these I should be able to improve my understanding, increase my self knowledge beyond my conscious self.  Self is response, when our responses are stable and predictable then people can trust us and know us, because when responses stabilize a self is formed and persisted until new responses are appropriate.

We are not knowable until a self stabilizes.   My current self, who I am, is expressed in my responses.  Look at my responses and know me.  Maybe there is more to me than my responses, but there is not less.  My responses are mine, and whoever I might truly be, it cannot be distanced from the testament of my own behavior.

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Conversational Structure

The need to talk?  Does a need to problem solve drive the need to talk?  Does all discussion seek to solve a problem?

When someone speaks to me should I understand them to be communicating in order to solve or avoid a problem?

Actions are part of an agent's response to circumstance.
Agent's are under a response imperative.
Speaking is an example of conversational action.
Speaking is a change that an agent makes to itself, resulting in a change in circumstantial impressions.
Conversation is initiated as a response to circumstance.
Conversation is continued as a response to conversational circumstance.
Conversation is ceased as a response to conversational circumstance.

I should understand people to be speaking for a reason.  That reason may not relate to conversation content, and that reason may not be mutually beneficial.  Also reasons range from the trivial to the deeply significant, and from the selfish to the caring.

Misidentifying a conversation's structural attributes leads to inappropriate responses.  I should make myself more aware of conversational structure and my position within it.

Thursday, August 07, 2014

Good Times

Just wanted to make what should be an obvious observation, these are historically very good times.

Friday, July 11, 2014

Microsoft: Lighten your stock holdings

Microsoft just cancelled my gold membership, and they sent me an email to let me know.  They had an old credit card number and it needed to be updated, which is very common these days due to all the hacking, etc.  Other companies send me friendly emails when an attempted charge fails and I go and update it.  Microsoft tried to charge the old number six different times, but only contacted me once they had finally cancelled the account.  Why would they not try and keep me a paying customer?  I was paying for my Gold membership more out of momentum than actual usage.  If they had given me a courtesy email I might have stayed but now I'm cancelled so I reviewed the membership benefits... Not what you want people doing Microsoft.

This is not the first time Microsoft decided they didn't want my money.  They also abandoned their online music pay service, Zune, kicked me off and forced me to look elsewhere.  Then a couple years later they start up another service Xbox Music... screw you MS.  Why would I waste time with your pathetic fits and starts.  You guys seem so eager to abandon your paying customers...

CON:  Given the lack luster Xbox-One product, their careless customer service, and their repeated failure to connect with the consumer market I'm pulling back from MS's consumer products.  This group had so much potential, but they have spent it down to nothing.  MS needs to clean this part of their organization up badly.

PRO:  Online MS Office is awesome.  They did this really well and I'm happy to be paying for Office 365.  Its worth it.

PRO:  They also still rule in the development world, their IDE is the best and their online visual studio product is getting really impressive.  So I'm more than ever in support of them in this space.  They are dominate and still seem be driven in the right directions, most of the time.

Saturday, June 21, 2014

Care, Know, Share

1. Take Care of thyself, yourself, your whole.
2. Know thyself, yourself, your whole.
3. Share thyself, yourself, your whole.

Take care, know and share: be a good human.

Unity of self

We do not inhabit our bodies.   There is no separated self.  We are not more than our bodies, and our bodies are not less than our minds, any more than our whole could be less than any other single part.

Tuesday, June 03, 2014

Perfection is an idea, not a reality.

Friday, May 30, 2014

Avoid it being both arbitrary and precise.

Friday, May 23, 2014

We are part of a culture
that learned how to work
and forgot how to live.

This is all voluntary.

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Facts of Reality

A fact represents specific knowledge from range (0, 1) or the absence of knowledge [0], but it cannot represent perfect knowledge (1).  Perfection is not an aspect if reality.  Reality facts are from range [0, 1).

Facts are non-negative.

Thursday, May 01, 2014

“First say to yourself what you would be;
and then do what you have to do.”


Thursday, April 24, 2014

Differing Styles of Living

I switch from a Stoic to an Epicurean mindset when I can.  I switch from Epicurean into Stoic when duty calls and vigilance is needed.  When neither way finds a path, I switch to Cynic and remember my freedom.

Thursday, March 06, 2014

Pain Trumps Pleasure

I've been working with a pain/pleasure type feedback system lately and one of the problems I was working on was requiring me to determine if pleasure could be meaningful when consecutive with pain, or if pain necessarily disrupts the pleasure which only returns when the pain is removed.  Decisions were made related to the code goals but the question was interesting, I've found myself thinking about it several times since then.  I also feel a bit more appreciative of the potential depth of Epicurus's philosophy.

must a moment be free of pain
before we can call it pleasurable?

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

We cannot keep that which we love
for the imperfect must change.

So we practice saying "Yes"
Until living grows less strange.

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

“Philosophy calls for simple living, not for doing penance, and the simple way of life need not be a crude one.” 


Thursday, January 02, 2014

Skeptic quote

"And no man knows distinctly anything,
And no man ever will."