Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage: A novel

I read Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage: A novel in two days, because wow.  As always, I feel stunned after finishing one of his novels, not sure what to say, and unable to describe what I've just read in any way that could possibly do it justice.  Loved it.

Self is Response

Self is Response

We know that our conscious awareness accounts for a minority of actual brain activity, we know that we cannot force ourselves to remember, sometimes we must wait and the memory will come, in its own time.  We know that we were waiting on something else, that we do not control but that cooperates with our conscious awareness.  We are more than our conscious awareness, our capabilities are greater than this and more loosely connected than we often know or admit.

How can we know ourselves?  We can know ourselves by our responses, by our behavior.  How do I respond to given situations?  How I respond defines my current self.  My responses are the imprint of my full self upon circumstance, from these I should be able to improve my understanding, increase my self knowledge beyond my conscious self.  Self is response, when our responses are stable and predictable then people can trust us and know us, because when responses stabilize a self is formed and persisted until new responses are appropriate.

We are not knowable until a self stabilizes.   My current self, who I am, is expressed in my responses.  Look at my responses and know me.  Maybe there is more to me than my responses, but there is not less.  My responses are mine, and whoever I might truly be, it cannot be distanced from the testament of my own behavior.

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Conversational Structure

The need to talk?  Does a need to problem solve drive the need to talk?  Does all discussion seek to solve a problem?

When someone speaks to me should I understand them to be communicating in order to solve or avoid a problem?

Actions are part of an agent's response to circumstance.
Agent's are under a response imperative.
Speaking is an example of conversational action.
Speaking is a change that an agent makes to itself, resulting in a change in circumstantial impressions.
Conversation is initiated as a response to circumstance.
Conversation is continued as a response to conversational circumstance.
Conversation is ceased as a response to conversational circumstance.

I should understand people to be speaking for a reason.  That reason may not relate to conversation content, and that reason may not be mutually beneficial.  Also reasons range from the trivial to the deeply significant, and from the selfish to the caring.

Misidentifying a conversation's structural attributes leads to inappropriate responses.  I should make myself more aware of conversational structure and my position within it.

Thursday, August 07, 2014

Good Times

Just wanted to make what should be an obvious observation, these are historically very good times.